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Learned this morning my Gran Gran passed away (that's two grandmothers in one month) though it wasn't though covid19 I still couldn't see her these past few months due to risk of exposure which I understand but still. I've been so stressed out the passed few days, fearing a phone call or even a text. I know pretty much everyone is having difficult times now.
She and my Papaw who passed away in 05 were a huge part of me. Practically raised me in my early formative years. I remember watching ponies and gummi bears with her when I was real little (SDGF was a me and Papaw thing, so you can blame him for it.it was the last thing I watched with him before he got real bad sick and placed in the hospital, I guess that's why I'm so attached to it. I can still hear him saying. 'is that a horse?' and 'aw,he fixed his sword for him')

playing around in the garden and helping snap beans and helping cook ..well, thought I was helping. Going to church in the morning and fighting with my sister over who got to sit between her and Papaw and her parking both of us between them then we argued who's turn was it to sit by who. I remember that purple and gold watch with the little sparkly purple hearts that traced along the edge she would wear to church and I would lean my head on her arm or lap and just watch it. Getting older I would 'run away' to them since they lived just over the hill. I always felt safe there. (Except for when my Papaw had those blasted peacocks.then it wasn't safe, not for me. Thankfully he didn't keep them long) and bout near every two months there was a new batch of kittens for me to spoil.

I consider myself blessed that I got to stay with her during her last few good years after she had breast cancer and had surgery and couldn't stay home by herself from 2010 to 2014 but then I got sick and couldn't stay with her anymore. That seemed to be when the decline started happening and part of me blames myself for not being able to stay with her
I miss both of them so much

As has mentioned. Nearly all the SDGF episodes on YouTube have been removed. I noticed back in I think November when EP 2 was removed and thinking 'well here we go again' but thankfully there are a few sites where you can still watch and as a fan I feel it's my duty to share!

www.thewatchcartoononline.tv/a…

kissanime.nz/Anime/SD-Gundam-F… whilst this one has atleast one (ep1) in Japanese the site does have a lot of pop ups and ads that are kinda....eeeeeh.

animekisa.tv/sd-gundam-force-d… again this one also does pop ups like mad

Other links I have don't have SDGF but have the newer SD Gundam shows

I hope this is useful to anyone. If I find more or if anyone provides more, I'll add and give thanks!
(now if only we can get a translation of the anime adaption manga..I'd buy that in a heartbeat)

(Gotta go back to putting stamps in journal now)
I pretty much let the stamps speak for me.
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I know it's practically abandoned but I couldn't help myself with all the nostalgia it brings. I'm going to continue posting on mediminer. I know it's changed alot and the ad thing is very annoying, but it was in a sense my 'birth place', the first place where I got into fandom back in 04.
www.mediaminer.org/fanfic/a/sd…
I just love reading the old ones (that are in script form XD ) it made me feel happy. Like a kid again. Must be the lavender I'm wearing

Been awhile since I did a journal.
Guess all I need to say is this has been a pretty rough year for me.
Lost my cat Ollie in May then I had to have my dog Shadow put down due to brain damage from being hit by a truck November of last. Then I lost a close cousin in June then a close elderly friend in September and now my Gran Gran is being placed in hospice due to multiple complications. I just pray for atleast one more Christmas with her.

But I'm gonna try and stay positive and keep my chin up as Ms. Mary would tell me. None of them would want me to act miserable, I know. I just consider it a blessing for knowing them for the time I had with them.(her son gave me her recipe box full of hand written cards, some dating to the 40s. That felt like a honor to me. I loved helping her cook dinner for her bunch and he asked if I could make her hummingbird cake and I did)

As some might notice I've been trying to get back into a old but still loved fandom. (SDGF) I've noticed I'm WAY behind on some discoveries. Please excuse me for that. I would love to see more from others (I still love you guys!)
Been reading up on some of the old, from back yonder fanfics still on media miner ..oh the nostalgia.

so sorry about being gone for so long... found out I have severe UC (ulcerative colitis) back in May after losing 3pints of blood and its been a little rocky for me especially since they have me on medicine they give to treat leukemia and lots of immune suppressants . I've lost so much weight its not funny, clocking at 95lb at the hospital but fortunately they say my body will get used to it and I have to be very.. very...very careful what I eat which is funny its self because pretty much what all these food Nazis are trying to force us to eat, I can't. No fresh fruits or vegetables or nuts. foods I used to love (like pot stickers) I get sick just smelling now. and now with fall..so much of the food we prepare for Fall festivities and Thanksgiving I can't eat now..its horrid!..but I'll adjust
anywho, just wanted to let those who've been asking know what's been going on